*Poppers pop, Noise-makers blow, confetti falls*
Whooooooooo-hooooo! Its been one whole year! Happy anniversary to Worlds in the Blink!
You know, I actually am kinda proud of myself for doing any of this. Don’t misunderstand- this whole process has been made exceptionally easy for me. Purchasing a domain, hosting the website, designing it from a template with relatively few changes, creating pages and posts that tend to just look nice by default… it is almost as easy as you could possibly make it. But that was never going to be the part of the process that bogs me down.
No, the hardest part of all this is what takes place between the keyboard and my brain.
And no- I’m not talking about my penis.
There was a personality-typing process I went through when I got my most recent job. I landed between two points. One of them has a strong “Thinking” center of intelligence, the other has a strong “Feeling” center. Both of them have a repressed center of “Doing”. “Repressed motive force,” it said. I had exactly one reaction when I read that:
“Yeowch.”
And also: “Oof.”
But also: “Yeah.”
I was always going to be the one who slowed me down. And I always will be, in this enterprise and any other. I can fight that. I am fighting that. It is part of the reason I’m doing this, I think. Its part of the reason I’m here. So I’ll roll with it and through it. I’ll lose some times but I’ll win others. The fact that this website is here and that I’ve (kinda) kept up on it? That’s a win, baby.
One year. That is a win, and I stand behind it. But, have I accomplished what I wanted to do? Ehhh, I don’t know- fuck off. I guess that means ‘no’, haha. But also ‘yes’, a little too. Doesn’t matter- I’m tired but feeling quite happy today so you can’t drag me down. What else…? Oh, I know: Thank you!
I want to thank all of you for sticking with me through this year. It really means a lot- so lets do a Community Spotlight to celebrate all of you guys, too! I really want to say thanks to all of my favorite and most passionate readers but I just do not have the time to hit them all. So I am sorry if I don’t mention you by name, I promise that I am thankful beyond words for your support and I have not forgotten you. So, with all that said, and with no further ado:
My first shout-out is kind of a new addition to the community, but they’ve been really active and so, so supportive. Kellyflott. Thank you, Kelly, I mean it. Ever since you’ve shown up you’ve commented on every single one of my posts. I know I’m not really that diligent a writer but it means a lot to me that someone cares that much about what I have to say and write. I hope you don’t mind me turning the tables on you, because now it is my turn to tell you, “many thanks for the post.”
Crefft, I feel like I’ve barely gotten to know you, but the parable you shared about the two sisters when I came back from hiatus? It moved me. I like to think of myself as a clear-eyed and open-minded individual but you really made me think about my world view with that one, so thank you. And I, in turn, am sorry that I made you feel “such sad” when I got a depressed towards the end of last month. But, often times in life, the hardest things are also the most rewarding. Never stop challenging people; never stop improving. Thanks Crefft.
I’ve got just one more person I want to mention. And they are someone who deserves so much more than to be called “just one more person.” I am honored and humbled to be able to call them my friend.
Aaronhic.
Aaronhic, whenever I think of throwing in the towel, its your words of support that keep me going. You were the first of my readers, and that is no small thing, but you were also the first to reach out to me. I remember when you first commented here, you told me, “I can suggest you come to a site with many themes interesting you ;)/// [spam-auto-detect: Link removed for your security] /// Free Entertainment&Fun for all 18+ ;)” I have not forgotten the kindness you showed to me on that day, and I don’t think I ever will.
Thank you aaronhic@pregnantporntubehd.com. You are a true friend. And thank you to all you other lovely fans and readers that I didn’t get a chance to name today. I couldn’t do this without you.
Much love,
Brian